New Years

The motivation to write doesn't come easily for me, especially in a society like ours. I find myself on Facebook more than I am reading a book or walking. I know that if I set a New Years resolution for something like Facebook, it just won't come though in the end. So I won't.

I'll be able to find the time to write more often now that school is pretty much finished for me. I just have to go to classes and maintain my grades, and I'm fine. So resolutions like, "I'm gonna work hard in order to get into a good college" are beyond my power.

1. I've been single for a while now, and now that school is pretty much over for me, I feel like I can allow myself to have a girlfriend. It started out with my mom being super strict about girls. The rule around my house was "Not til college". My mom grew up elsewhere and culture is different here, and because of that I feel like I should be able to decide whether or not I want a girlfriend. My subconscious thirsted for someone to spend my holidays with or someone to spend romantic evenings with, but on the surface, I knew the person I chose would just become a burden and I wouldn't enjoy it as much as I intended. I want something that will last over society's norms of a couple months. To tell you the truth, no one has stood out at me either. Of course there are those girls that are super pretty, but they always seems to flock to a popular crowd in which I definitely don't belong. In essence, my standards are reasonable and I don't look for the super models within the crowd; however, my standards are specific. Others may have differing opinions, but a division exists between high standards and specific. I don't need the big boobs, the voluptuous ass, or the world's prettiest face. I'm definitely a bit shallow in some ends, but what it boils down to is the inside that matters. If I found the perfect girl and she was short, a little chunky, and had too much testosterone then I could still marry her. But those kinds of people are hard to come by because I have a sort of curse. When I start to like a girl, she gets stolen from me by someone else just because I'm too reserved and nice of a guy to be the one finishing first.

2. One of the biggest bucket list goals of mine is to start my own clothing line, but the thing is, I just don't know how. Conveniently one of my friends wanted to start making t-shirts, and he asked if I was willing to partake, and naturally I joined. If I can get some of my art printed on shirts and get people to wear them, then I would be happy for the rest of my life. Our ultimate goal is to see a random person outside of the town we live in wearing one of our shirts. We ask of nothing more, nothing less. Style wise, we want to stay away from the popular worded shirts. Instead, we want to put original art and pictures on the shirts so that we feel like we have quality to our work, but for now we need to get started, and hopefully we will have something going by the end of the year. We have to dream big right?